Calgon, Take Me Away!
I really feel like I need to be blogging about something as there is so much fluttering through my stressed out little head right now. But truth be told, I'm kind of at a loss for words right now.
The body has been holding up relatively well. The latest round of ripped saddle sores seem to be healing faster than normal. The toenail I lost a few weeks ago has slowly grown back in. In fun news, I'm down 15 pounds from this time last year...10 of which seems to have melted off the past 2-3 months alone. Still not sleeping exceptionally well, so the next night or two may be throw down thanks in large part to Tylenol PM. Last night I was up until close to 3am. And Queen's "Somebody To Love" was playing on loop in my head. Great song. But not what I want to have blaring on my internal bose system when I'm supposed to be waking up in a few short hours.
Work...what's that? My team has been wonderful the past few weeks. Right now I think my mental capacity would tap out if I were asked to count beans. Infinitely cool how understanding everyone has been...and not to mention how supportive they are. I'm really lucky.
Seriously though. My head is just overflowing with a myriad of thoughts. Some race related. Some family related. Some friend related. Some work related. Some world peace related. My brain runneth over.
My friends have been doing an amazing job keeping my head distracted with sugar cookies (made of PR's!) and Kansas basketball and positive thoughts. Mike's been doing an amazing job trying to keep my head in the game. And frankly, I've been doing a decent job trying to disconnect from it all...in my mind I'm swinging in a hammock on some remote island in the Caribbean sucking down a Miami Vice and grinning at the brain freeze it brings as I listen to the lapping of the ocean waves. It's a wonderful place, this little island in my mind.
Needless to say, I'm trying to avoid the reality of the 140.6 miles ahead of me. Yes. I know it's coming. Yes. I'm (mostly) excited about it. Yes. I'm a bit nervous, too. But ya know...there's not a whole hell of a lot I can do at this point.
I can't control the weather. So I've stopped obsessing over the direction of the wind and the high's for the day.
I can't change the murky dark chilly water of tempe town lake.
I can't change the fact I'll be running in the dark for an extended period of time.
I can't control the course. So I've put stressing about the bike leg on the back burner.
I can only control my thoughts. So why panic? It's not worth the energy at this point in time.
So if you'd like to join me on this little island of awesomeness in my mind, feel free to stop on by. Just don't forget to pack your sunscreen and show up with an extra frozen fruity drink in hand.
...mine's almost empty.
The body has been holding up relatively well. The latest round of ripped saddle sores seem to be healing faster than normal. The toenail I lost a few weeks ago has slowly grown back in. In fun news, I'm down 15 pounds from this time last year...10 of which seems to have melted off the past 2-3 months alone. Still not sleeping exceptionally well, so the next night or two may be throw down thanks in large part to Tylenol PM. Last night I was up until close to 3am. And Queen's "Somebody To Love" was playing on loop in my head. Great song. But not what I want to have blaring on my internal bose system when I'm supposed to be waking up in a few short hours.
Work...what's that? My team has been wonderful the past few weeks. Right now I think my mental capacity would tap out if I were asked to count beans. Infinitely cool how understanding everyone has been...and not to mention how supportive they are. I'm really lucky.
Seriously though. My head is just overflowing with a myriad of thoughts. Some race related. Some family related. Some friend related. Some work related. Some world peace related. My brain runneth over.
My friends have been doing an amazing job keeping my head distracted with sugar cookies (made of PR's!) and Kansas basketball and positive thoughts. Mike's been doing an amazing job trying to keep my head in the game. And frankly, I've been doing a decent job trying to disconnect from it all...in my mind I'm swinging in a hammock on some remote island in the Caribbean sucking down a Miami Vice and grinning at the brain freeze it brings as I listen to the lapping of the ocean waves. It's a wonderful place, this little island in my mind.
Needless to say, I'm trying to avoid the reality of the 140.6 miles ahead of me. Yes. I know it's coming. Yes. I'm (mostly) excited about it. Yes. I'm a bit nervous, too. But ya know...there's not a whole hell of a lot I can do at this point.
I can't control the weather. So I've stopped obsessing over the direction of the wind and the high's for the day.
I can't change the murky dark chilly water of tempe town lake.
I can't change the fact I'll be running in the dark for an extended period of time.
I can't control the course. So I've put stressing about the bike leg on the back burner.
I can only control my thoughts. So why panic? It's not worth the energy at this point in time.
So if you'd like to join me on this little island of awesomeness in my mind, feel free to stop on by. Just don't forget to pack your sunscreen and show up with an extra frozen fruity drink in hand.
...mine's almost empty.
posted by Iron Jayhawk at 10:08 AM
9 Camper Comments:
I believe this is all normal (the stress/excitement/fear stuff.
Wishing you luck and many smiles on your journey ahead.
Best of luck on your 140.6. I met you at Mattoon. Did you do Pleasant Prairie too (I saw the 7/12/09 reference on your blog)? I was there too! Did it with a good friend who turned 50 this year & it was her first tri. She had a great time & I'm sure will do more. Have some fun & yes, you are definitely ready. I will be cheering you on in St Louis!
Amy
Just think of what you're going to do with the prize money!!!!!
i've been following your blog for a bit now and just want to say best of luck...what you're doing is really amazing!!
p.s. - i'm also from chicago and saw you run down chicago avenue once when i was having lunch at RL. is that fun and coincidental? or weird and creepy?
I have some insomnia issues and am huge with the music loop. One night I had Fergie's "fergalicious" going through my head till about 5AM. Now that I have a child, I find cartoon theme songs and tunes from her toys circling through my head. Im not sure which is worse :(
How do you get that crap to stop? Thats what I want to know...
Congrats on losing 15 lbs! That is great.
Hey, I'll join you for a cocktail on the beach. No worries. Soak it all in right now, it's all part of the Ironman experience. Smile and enjoy!
I came across you blog a few weeks back and have been checking in now and then. I am doing IMAZ this weekend as well and your last post describes exactly how I am feeling. We will do it though! Maybe I will see you on the course!
Barb - I'm so excited for your race. Where can we follow your progress on race day? Will Mike be blogging and tweeting somewhere? Pretty please?
Best of times this weekend, from your friends from Enduracamp 2007!!!
Have fun you are so ready!
Kelly & Heather!
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