A conversation with myself...
Good morning, self. How are you doing today?
Ever have one of those days where you can feel the stress gradually building up inside of you like a volcano and if someone so much as looks as you wrong you're either a) going to have a melt down of mass hysterics or b) you're going to self explode and take out everything within a 50 mile radius of you?
Ah yes...I do know that feeling. All too well actually. In fact, that's me at this very moment and over the past two days. There's a lot boiling inside and i'm pretty much a ticking time bomb.
Sounds like you need a drink.
I couldn't have said it better myself. Oh wait. I did say that since this is a conversation with myself. But ya know...familiar voices, friendly phone calls, back rubs, hugs, and of course wine, they do help...
...but they only do so much.
True dat. But they do help. Have you done any running lately? You know that helps you relieve stress.
No. Why don't you rub it in a little more. Thanks.
You know you're entirely screwed, right? You've got a half marathon in 17 days.
Yeah. I know. But the nice folks at Elite Racing are giving me four hours to cover 13.1 miles. I'm not too worried about that. I figure I'll have a nice long stroll through Nashville with my iPod. No Garmin or anything...heck, I may not even wear my chip. Just me and my shoes...walking through Music City USofA. Minimal running of course, don't want to screw myself over when I actually decide to get my poop in a group and train like I should. How's that tri stuff going for you anyway?
Tri? Hahhahahahahhahahahahhahaaa....
Oh.
Yeah. Not so much, Barb. I'm pretty sure I'm dropping down to the du. And that's even if I do Galena all together.
What?! I thought you were all good in the pool?
Oh...I am. Although I haven't been in a month or something ridiculous like that. It's actually the bike portion that has me all wiggity wiggity whack.
Oooooooooooh the bike! And you know how hilly Galena is.
Don't remind me. If were just running and swimming I'd be there with bells on. But at this point, there's a very strong possibility I'll just wait and have my first tri up in Wisconsin at Danskin. Sounds more appealing each day. Plus it's supposed to be the anti-race environment, which I could really use right about now.
Right on. Can't blame you. Sure beats gritting through this one and being injured. So what else is going on? How'd the rennovations end up?
Well...I'm so relieved that our bathroom and carpet are finally redone...and most everything is back in its proper place. There is still a few things left to do in the bedroom, but all in all it's come together nicely. However, the fact that we still have to file with the Better Business Bureau is still looming over my head.
Ew. That's no fun. I don't even want to know why you have to file.
Yeah. You don't. Let's leave it at people are idiots.
Fair enough. So when are we going to see some photos of your new place?
Eh....I'll get around to it. Eventually.
So what else is weighing on your mind?
Too much. Most of which I really just don't want to talk about. Work drama. Boob drama. Training drama (or lack thereof). Drama drama. Other drama. Stupid drama. It's a wonder I got out of bed this morning drama. I'm just really ready for everything to be in its right place...
Sounds like it.
Well...why don't you get back to work? I know procrastination is fun and all...but you really should try and focus today.
I know.
So shut up and work.
fine.
[Song of the moment: Radiohead - No Surprises. ]
Ever have one of those days where you can feel the stress gradually building up inside of you like a volcano and if someone so much as looks as you wrong you're either a) going to have a melt down of mass hysterics or b) you're going to self explode and take out everything within a 50 mile radius of you?
Ah yes...I do know that feeling. All too well actually. In fact, that's me at this very moment and over the past two days. There's a lot boiling inside and i'm pretty much a ticking time bomb.
Sounds like you need a drink.
I couldn't have said it better myself. Oh wait. I did say that since this is a conversation with myself. But ya know...familiar voices, friendly phone calls, back rubs, hugs, and of course wine, they do help...
...but they only do so much.
True dat. But they do help. Have you done any running lately? You know that helps you relieve stress.
No. Why don't you rub it in a little more. Thanks.
You know you're entirely screwed, right? You've got a half marathon in 17 days.
Yeah. I know. But the nice folks at Elite Racing are giving me four hours to cover 13.1 miles. I'm not too worried about that. I figure I'll have a nice long stroll through Nashville with my iPod. No Garmin or anything...heck, I may not even wear my chip. Just me and my shoes...walking through Music City USofA. Minimal running of course, don't want to screw myself over when I actually decide to get my poop in a group and train like I should. How's that tri stuff going for you anyway?
Tri? Hahhahahahahhahahahahhahaaa....
Oh.
Yeah. Not so much, Barb. I'm pretty sure I'm dropping down to the du. And that's even if I do Galena all together.
What?! I thought you were all good in the pool?
Oh...I am. Although I haven't been in a month or something ridiculous like that. It's actually the bike portion that has me all wiggity wiggity whack.
Oooooooooooh the bike! And you know how hilly Galena is.
Don't remind me. If were just running and swimming I'd be there with bells on. But at this point, there's a very strong possibility I'll just wait and have my first tri up in Wisconsin at Danskin. Sounds more appealing each day. Plus it's supposed to be the anti-race environment, which I could really use right about now.
Right on. Can't blame you. Sure beats gritting through this one and being injured. So what else is going on? How'd the rennovations end up?
Well...I'm so relieved that our bathroom and carpet are finally redone...and most everything is back in its proper place. There is still a few things left to do in the bedroom, but all in all it's come together nicely. However, the fact that we still have to file with the Better Business Bureau is still looming over my head.
Ew. That's no fun. I don't even want to know why you have to file.
Yeah. You don't. Let's leave it at people are idiots.
Fair enough. So when are we going to see some photos of your new place?
Eh....I'll get around to it. Eventually.
So what else is weighing on your mind?
Too much. Most of which I really just don't want to talk about. Work drama. Boob drama. Training drama (or lack thereof). Drama drama. Other drama. Stupid drama. It's a wonder I got out of bed this morning drama. I'm just really ready for everything to be in its right place...
Sounds like it.
Well...why don't you get back to work? I know procrastination is fun and all...but you really should try and focus today.
I know.
So shut up and work.
fine.
[Song of the moment: Radiohead - No Surprises. ]
Labels: the voices in my head
posted by Iron Jayhawk at 8:57 AM
11 Camper Comments:
uugh girl. I am sending good happy vibes your way.
boob drama?
Remember the fact you're attempting a Tri at all is a huge feat! If you're not up for Galena, so be it. I'm partial to Wisconsin anyway, so I say make that your first race :)
I hope your drama repellent starts working very soon ...
i am sending you drama repellent rays your way...you do know that i am a superhero of anti-drama...oh wait...no that's not me. see you soon girly!
You will be fiiine in Nashville- it will not be speedy, and you will be sore the days after, but you won't die. Promise. Plus, that area of town is beautiful - eat at Bosco's, Pancake Pantry, and Noshville while you're there (they're all near Vanderbilt's campus, which is near the Start/Finish). This race will just be for fun.... so have fun!
aw, barb...head up chica.
Ahh! I think we've all had those days - want to go for a drink tomorrow?
Hang in there Barb! I'm not having the same conversation with myself, but one very very similar! Just take it one day at a time.
It sounds to me like you need to take the drink part seriously. Once you have a case of beer in you, you'll see that half marathon and tri with a whole new level of confidence!
DEEP BREATHS...DEEP BREATHS....JUST KEEP THINKING OF ALL THE WONDERFUL THINGS IN YOUR LIFE....MIKE, YOUR CRUISE, MIKE, ST. KITTS....MIKE AND ME, YOUR MOM!!!! LOVE YOU BABY GIRL...SEE YOU IN A FEW WEEKS!!!
(((HUGS)))
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