"Pressure...pushing down on me...pushing down on you...no man ask for..."
Well, campers.
I've had my first official marathon anxiety attack. And it wasn't pretty.
It happened tonight...while at Wicked with my hubby and the folks. Watching the second half I thought I was going to get up and leave. And hurl all over the aisle in the process. It was awful. Beyond awful in fact. The thought of just not running was coming to mind and sounding so appealing. Bad. I know.
I am officially beyond the zone of freak out and I have crossed over to the dark side. Literally fighting back tears, my insides in complex knots and overally, in a really bad place.
It's been awful. And borderline ridiculous.
I've done the distance before...so I *know* I can do it again (or at least I've convinced myself so)...but this time there's just so much pressure. And it's what I've put on myself. About time. About performing well. About not walking so much.
Effing pressure. Which is ridiculous.
Encouraging words welcome.
Needed, actually.
Bring my head back in this guys...because right now my emotions are ruling the day and it ain't healthy.
Song of the moment: Pressure by Queen/Bowie.
I've had my first official marathon anxiety attack. And it wasn't pretty.
It happened tonight...while at Wicked with my hubby and the folks. Watching the second half I thought I was going to get up and leave. And hurl all over the aisle in the process. It was awful. Beyond awful in fact. The thought of just not running was coming to mind and sounding so appealing. Bad. I know.
I am officially beyond the zone of freak out and I have crossed over to the dark side. Literally fighting back tears, my insides in complex knots and overally, in a really bad place.
It's been awful. And borderline ridiculous.
I've done the distance before...so I *know* I can do it again (or at least I've convinced myself so)...but this time there's just so much pressure. And it's what I've put on myself. About time. About performing well. About not walking so much.
Effing pressure. Which is ridiculous.
Encouraging words welcome.
Needed, actually.
Bring my head back in this guys...because right now my emotions are ruling the day and it ain't healthy.
Song of the moment: Pressure by Queen/Bowie.
posted by Iron Jayhawk at 11:11 PM
22 Camper Comments:
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I have confidence you!!!!!!! I truthfully do JHawk.
Just breathe ... I have absolute confidence in you that you CAN and WILL do this. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. XXOO Susan
We're all nervous, in a way. But you know what, besides the weather and everything else you can't contorl, there is one thing you can control: putting one foot in front of other. You've done it countless times and have faith in your training and yourself. Good luck!
You are going to do awesome! Once you get to the start and feel the excitment of the crowds, spectators and other runners you will feel great. You know you can do it. Relax and enjoy!
Ok, girl - Do I need to come and smack you around to get your head back in the game? Stop psyching yourself out! The majority of this is mental. You know that! So start concentrating on the postitive...You have worked so hard training these past months and I KNOW that you can do this. And YOU KNOW that you can do this! So, what's the problem? No, it isn't going to be easy. If it was everyone would do it. But, it is worth it because for some reason we crazy fools need to do this. The only pressure is coming from you. And maybe you are being too hard on yourself. You have some struggles to deal with, and it's hard to be at the top of your game when you are in pain. Just finish the thing, and don't worry about your time. I'll be there with you in spirit every step of the way! Right beside you saying over and over...GO, Barb, GO! You CAN do it! Now get out there and kick some Chicago Marathon butt!!
BARB - You have got this!!!! You have done it before so you know it's possible and tomorrow you are going to do it with LOADS of RBF and real life friends which is SO awesome!!! AND your husband!!! Have fun, take it slow and easy and ENJOY every single amazing mile. You CAN do this!!!!!
You've done it before, you WILL do it again!
I think we're all kind of freaking out a little right now...or at least you and I are both freaking out.
Just take a few deep breaths, and tell yourself that this is just another training run...albeit there are going to be 39,999 other people on this training run with you. Just think of how much fun this is going to be.
I suppose I should be freaking out, too. (Wait a minute, that's not helpful. Let me try again...)
Just remember...
1) You will have the love and support of over a million spectators--not to mention yours truly and your many other running blog admirers!
2) No matter how rough things get, you WILL cross the finish line!
3) You will be wrapped in a blanket.
4) There will be beer and funny stories afterwards.
If all else fails, just start yelling non-sensiscal things at the spectators along the route. That's what I'm planning to do.
BARB!!! I am having the exact same issues! You need a pep talk. You are going to be fabulous! I have the utmost faith and confidence in you. NOW you just need to believe in yourself! Smile...no pressure...only fun! And remeber WE ALL THINK YOU ARE FABULOUS and LOVE YOU!!!
honey you are going to be awe-some! I know that because you ARE awesome. you will get out there with all the people and the music and you are going to have SO much fun!
Remember, they shoot and maim the last 10 percent of the runners. This is a way of ensuring the herd remains strong. So don’t be in the 10 percent. Have a great time!
Nike said it best, "Just Do It", put aside all the self inflicted pressures and hold your chin up high and be proud of yourself for participating in this event, no matter if you have to walk some, it's ok it's YOUR race and you will cross that finish line because it's what you are there to do!
run it girlfriend!
But you didn't mention how you liked "Wicked"! j/k
I'm sure it's perfectly natual to be nervous -- there are 30,000 other nervous marathoners out there at this moment! You'll do great!
We are all behind you!!!
You are going to totally rock!! Run your race in your time!!!! I am cheering for you all the way from Arizona and I KNOW you can do it!!!!!!!!
Go, Barb, GO! You are going to do great! I can not run today so you need to run for me.
GREAT job girl!!! Congrats on your new marathon PR! I can't wait to hear all about it!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU CAN DO THIS!! You have prepared, you have done it before, you have the ability and the drive. Now go out there and get'er done.
Barb, by now, you did it! And so did all of your grateful mentees. You were a wonderful mentor and we owe you our thanks.
Your next challenge, now that you did the 26.2: work on looking for the upside of this wonderful accomplishment and quit being so hard on yourself!
hey if this stuff was easy it wouldn't be so rewarding.. Fight it!
Cheers.
Rice.
Girlie, YOU PR'ED!! You are awesome!!
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