Debbie Downer.
Consider that my attempt to bring humor to this semi-serious post.
I'm going to try and keep this short and sweet. I questioned whether or not I should post about it, cause well...it's personal. But then I thought...I post about everything else...so...why not? Here goes nothing...
I had a lady doc appointment earlier today (okay guys, stop groaning...shut up already). And well...she found something...something big that shouldn't be there...in my right boob. Something I didn't catch, but totally should have.
Have you felt this before?
Hmm...no...I typically do my self exams in the shower, standing up...
You really should be doing these laying down. Here feel...
{OH.MY.FLIPPING.GAWD.THATS.EFFING.HUGE} Uuuhhhhhhh....whoa...
The next few minutes are sort of a blur now...something about thinking it's probably nothing...but we need to be certain...so I have to come back in in 2-3 weeks....and blah blah blah. All the while she's talking, I'm freaking out mentally. Visions of double mastectomies, reconstructive surgery, and things ten times worse were filling my head. And I want no part of any of that.
I nod...I'm sure it's nothing, too. And on July 25th...we'll find out. I'm going in for an ultrasound. And until then, I'm sure this damn lump is going to continue to consume every fiber of my being.
And it sucks.
And because this totally has taken a toll on my overall demeanor...I did my own mini-remedy. First I called my mom...because let's face face it...no matter how old I may get, my mother will inevitably always know best. And then I went shopping. I figured a few. new. books. might cheer me up. And while it brought me a few moments of happiness...I'm back to the couch. Just bummin'. I figure if I'm not in the mood to run right now, I can at least read about how to run better...and read a few motivational and inspirational chick running stories...or a novel by my favorite author (Jennifer Weiner).
I'll get over the funk. In due time. I just need to know that this unfathomable thing inhabiting my boob isn't really a thing...but nothing really at all.
So ladies, please make sure you're doing your self breast exams regularly. Laying down. You just might catch a thing or two that you may not have otherwise.
This "The More You Know" moment has been brought to you by Running Jayhawk's right boob.
posted by Iron Jayhawk at 10:06 PM
20 Camper Comments:
First, Barb.....BREATHE!!! I had that happen to me once and it turned out to be NOTHING. I hope it's nothing for you. Focus on the running...which is my therapy for me.
Take one day at a time...one step at a time. It's going to be okay.
(This is a therapy moment from Dr. MNFirefly, PhD - I will you the bill.) LOL!
oh sweetie...that sucks. I would be in the same place you are and have in the past for some other issues. I'm sure you'll be fine and since there is nothing you can do till the 25th maybe going for a run is a good idea. That's what jason would say to me anyways :-)
Take care honey...
I hope it turns out to be nothing! Easier said than done, but try to not stress over it too much. I'll be thinking good thoughts for you!
Wow, thanks for the PSA, seriously. First, like everyone else said, you will be fine. And it sounds like you are already in positive mode. (Your small text at the end of the post made me laugh, which instantly made me feel bad b/c this is serious and I don't want to downplay it, but you are very funny) SOOO, in a lame attempt not to be trite, I just want you to know, you will be in my thoughts. E-mail me if you want to chat. (sam92077@gmail.com)
Take care, Barb. And try your best not to stress out too much. It won't do anything to help the situation and will just wreck your overall mood. Easier said than done, but do the best you can. I really hope it's just one big false alarm.
Don't panic. There are many benign lumps women have. Sometimes caffine can even cause lumps and fibrocystic breasts aren't cancer.
If you need anything including just going out or talking I'm here. I've been there before myself. Try not to stress to much. I'm sending you all my positive wishes.
Don't stress too much. I had the same thing happen to me in college...I freaked out big time and the first doctor I saw didn't make things any easier. Mine ended up just being a fibroadenoma (benign) but I had to get it out because it was so large. If you need anything at all in the meantime...just give me a shout out...I know how you feel!!
Yikes - I just found your blog and I'm sorry to have heard the bad news as the first post I read. Take one thing at a time, and best of luck!
Anything I say here is bound to be trite, so I am reluctant to say anything at all, but still I can't help but offer the following: solace, because it's scary, good luck, because you'll need it, and hope, because I'm sure everything will be fine.
That sucks!
I just have one question - why is it taking so long to have an ultrasound done? I would want one that day or at the latest the next day. Not 3 weeks from now.
Until then - positive thoughts.
Sucks to read this but thanks for putting it out in blogsphere.
and hoping the 3 week delay in an ultrasound is a good sign the doc's got a good feeling about this.
take care...btw the way, i tried to avoid the typical male groaning, but now am i supposed to lay down or stand to check on the boys??? See it's hard not to groan a little ;)
Jill...she's timing it so the ultrasound is during my next cycle. There's a reason for the delay...:sigh:
Yikes. Hopefully it's nothing serious - I know that my sister went through a similar scare a few years back (especially since we have a history of the big BC in my family). Here's hoping that everything turns out well!
You are in my thoughts in prayers, but I am sure that you will be OK!
XOXOXO to you, Barb! Please try not to panic though...I realize it is easier said than done. The waiting period is ALWAYS the worst!!
...you'll be in my thoughts...
Hope you can find a way to vent and relax. There's a strong likelihood that it is nothing serious. Hang in there... (and yes I was guilty of the male groan.)
wow I thought you were supposed to do the exams in the shower. Thanks for the reminder! I made my way overdue lady appointment for next week!
I am sure it is nothing but if it is something at least you caught it now and you can take care of it!
You are a survivor for sure and you will get through this with flying colors.
I had an abnormal cell scare back in my college days and I know that nothing can comfort you until the doc says it's nothing or treatable. I hope you are able to keep your head up through this as much as possible.
Hang in there, Barb! I know it's scary, but try not to freak out too much. I'll be thinking of you.
I will pray for you, Barb. Be strong, and keep running.
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